~ a cup of honey story and a bitter of bud rose~

HELLO EVERYONE!!

2010-12-25T01:12:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum and very good evening!

It's almost 2? 3? 4? months since I left this blog untouched. Hehehehe...very sorry indeed. Never meant to leave all of you guys. Been very busy this past few months, exam, job, running here and there, chasing the unknown(hehehe..AXN most famous quote), fighting, struggling, stressing, jumping, knocking, banging and soo many other things that I"ve done before.

As for you guys that followed me and aware of my current situation, I'm sure each and everyone of you are aware of what I'm currently up to right?

So, as for the new post I would like to update few of important thing happen in my life right now. Let's go down the list one by one guys!!

~THE MOST EXCITED ONE~

The award of the most excited one goes to.....(still can't get the award thingy out of my head, anugerah skrin thingy!)

CHERMIN PHOTOGRAPHY!!

hehehehe...Alhamdulillah, as for 16 October 2010 I've managed to start my own label for photography services called CHERMIN PHOTOGRAPHY alongside with my little brother. Thanks soo much to my dear little brother that keep pushing me to start our own brand and open my eyes on talent we have inside. As of today, we are expanding our business and currently have 4 crews in our team. Alhamdulillah, thanks soo much to Abang Faiz, who have faith in me and teach me the wonder of shutter, apperture and ISO. Thanks also to Amierul Zharief who constantly give comment and support me even I'm at the toughest part of my job. Thanks mama, papa, along, angah, abang and adik who were constantly motivated me and showing their never ending love towards us. BIG THANKS for you guys!

~THE MOST ANTICIPATED ONE~

The most anticipated one throughout my life of course the moment I bought my own NIKON D90 myself!! Alhamdulillah again, after 2 years involving, exploring the beautiful world of photography, I'm certainly grateful especially to papa who trust me to go there by myself and purchase my new gear. As for this gear, I would certainly use it only for business purposes and SIMBA will remains my lovely cutie-pie that help me a lot! Love you SIMBA!

Say hello everyone to Big-fat-Notty BOBBY!

(ouh, he's big! imagine lifting up a dumbbells. That what it's like lifting bobby)

~THE MOST SCARIEST ONE~

No other than FINAL EXAMINATION RESULT!!

suppose the results were out on 10 December 2010, but in the power of the speed of

typing power that I possessed since I'm in secondary school, I manage to check my result on the 9 December instead. Thanks to dear, MR. H for the wake up call that simply blow me out of my bed straight to my computer. Alhamdulillah for millionth of times, I've improve my CGPA and GPA for that particular semester nearly hit my target. But Alhamdulillah, thanks to ALLAH for this never ending gift!

with CGPA 3.*0, I'm officially part 4 marketing student in KBM!!

Guess, that's all for now. More exciting stories on the next post! stay tuned..~

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri~

2010-09-04T22:22:00.002+08:00

~Salam Aidilfitri~
Maaf Zahir dan Batin

khas buat semua pengikut setia laman ini

Ampunkan diri ini andai ada kata yang menyinggung, perangai yang menyakitkan, keterlanjuran yang tidak disengajakan, gurau yang terlebih, keterlupaan yang tidak dapat dimaafkan, bahasa yang kurang enak didengar..

sesunnguhnya saya juga manusia biasa, yang tidak sempurna...
andai ada kesempatan, ingin sekali diri ini memohon maaf dan membetulkan apa yg tersilap...andai ada peluang kedua, terima kasih diucapkan..~

Terima kasih kepada pengunjung setia yang senantiasa menyokong saya di laman ini...semoga ukhuwah yang terjalin akan terus berkekalan...Insya Allah~

(^______^)

Merdeka? Puasa? Raya?

2010-08-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

A mixed emotion totally!!

It's merdeka celebration tonight + in the middle of Ramadhan + raya is getting anywhere around the corner..

Totally mixed emotion right now!

I wanna go home, celebrate this last piece of Ramadhan with my family..

but I still have too many unfinished business need to be settle here..

urggggghhh!!

miera and ila out with ayu and the others, celebrating merdeka sumwhere in Malacca..

while me and cyn silently sitting in our rooms waiting for the fireworks to appear from our bedroom window..while doing our assignments and me? listening to hari raya song..huhuhhu,it's a must!

I am totally caught up in raya mood now!!

hehehehhe~

hey! it's still a kind of way to celebrate merdeka right?

I didn't forget it still..

soo Happy Merdeka Celebration Malaysia..!!

53rd and still going strong!!

Let's us forget any harm done to our country..

it is just another propaganda to ruin our peace and unity..

It's time for us to be one!!

and celebrate joy!!

^___________________^

It Takes 5 Minutes to Ruin Your Day!!

2010-08-26T16:43:00.001+08:00

Okay, well..

I guessed I won't post about this, since it totally ruins my Monday..

but then, I guess this is something to share with you guys..

Last Monday, I had a public speaking presentation 1, in which we've been assessed by our lecturer..I would say it as 'unlucky' as I am the 13th person to present on that day..

the nervousness really hit me this time..

I don't really know why my heart pumping soo fast..it is soo not normal for me..

I guess I was soo determined to finish my presentation and I was soo rushed just to meet the exact time given and manage to finish it in 5 Minutes with an additional of:

- Unnecessary stage fright

- Too much pausing

- Trembling and shivering

- Did not even look at my slide!!

and the list went down the history....~

Even some of my friend wonder what is going on with me..hahahah!!

I guess I'm just loosing my nerve..and it totally ruins my day~

THANKS!!

X_____X

This is my DREAM!!

2010-08-21T22:31:00.000+08:00

Okay, it happened few weeks ago..

I had attended this festival called 'KAGUM' or Karnival Gerak Usahawan Muda..

and there was a mascot, blue mascot of MAMEE MONSTERS..wore by my seniors..

and all of sudden I get excited..hahaha!!

*okay, this is my senpai pict wearing those mascot thingy..he looks cute but when he wore the head la..hahaha!! credits to mr Faizal Samat!

I told my friends that someday I want to wear costumes for mascot like that and they were laughing like mad at me..

said that it won't happen as my size is small..hahaha!!

*I guess that make sense..~

It's all because of I wish someday I could be a mascot!! hehehehe~

sounds ridiculous, but that is what I dream to try someday..hehehehe!!

I still remember one of my fav korean drama "My Love patzzi" where the actress wear the mascots and work at a theme park..she look soo cute!!

I wonder if there any theme park in Malaysia need someone for their mascots??

but then again...is there any mascot for theme park in Malaysia?? hahahahaha!!

well it just my dream...but if i ever get the chance to try it..I guess I won't hesitate..

hahaha!!

The Best Weekend Ever!!

2010-08-10T19:20:00.001+08:00

Almost two week have passed and I just got the time to blog it in today.

Last last week was the most memorable week I wouldn't forget for my entire life.

31 July 2010 : 8.00pm-12.00am
Hotel Equatorial Malacca

Marketing Student Association [MASA] held grand dinner + Malam Anugerah Kecemerlangan Akademik MASA 2010.

As a marketing student, I have to attend this dinner as one of the activity organised by the committee of MASA. Held at the grand Equatorial Hotel and it was the best dinner yet so far.

Penerapan Batch One a.k.a Choir MASA have been given the opportunities to lead the Wawasan Setia Warga UiTM and also UiTM Di Hatiku..
we sang out loud as the song needs us to scream our lung out!! [almost loose my breath after the song + I guess I'm kinda nervous until I wrongly sang the song] hahahaha~

Later, we performed our medley of Jac[Gemilang], Ella[standing in the eyes, gemilang]
the funny thing is...I was performing solo for the first song which I also doubt that I could even did it..hahaha!! well, at least I manage to sing it even I don't think I am at any level to beat our so - called 'artist', Jorodan..hehehe~ I'll upload the vid later...

Right after we finished performed, the Dean List Awards presentation being held. As for our part, total of 7to 8 students receive the dean list award for last semester. We received a plug, a mug and a cert.

After all of the award have been given, the organizer have prepared few other award to be awarded to those who have been chosen.

Surprise, surprise!!
I have been chosen to receive the award of

'Tokoh Harapan MASA 2010'

huhuhuhuhuh~
never in my life I would have dream for something this big..thanks to those who make it happened..especially mama, papa, along, angah, abang and adik who never stop believing in me and in anything that I have done or choose in my whole life...
I'm pretty sure I've gone through soo much obstacle and have make soo many choices in my life...

I would describe myself as
"Unsure Risk Taker"
I do take the risk and the challenge that come, but at the same time I doubt whether I could do it or not...and then I'll struggle really hard to prove myself that choices that I make was the right one..huhuhuh~

Anyway thanks again families, brothers, sisters, lecturers, seniors, juniors, friends, enemy?? and everyone that come and go from my life..I'm sure you have left a big impact on me even for a second...I really do appreciate each and everyone of you..even we rarely communicate that doesn't mean I totally forgot about you!!
and to my dear PENERAPAN MARKETING Dec - May 2010, you guys,raaawkkkksss!!!

LOTS of LOVE!!!

Make It Focus, It's Too Reckless~

2010-07-25T01:05:00.000+08:00

I guess I was being reckless and soo out of my world last week..I don't really knows what is getting on my nerve until at one point, I didn't feel like I'm living (wow, this part is scary...)

I drove, I walked, I ate, I slept, I read, I bathed, I talked, I learnt, I listened, I jogged, I laughed...I did almost everything...but everything seems not real...it was like watching a movie in slow motion but you are the only one that realized it..hahaha!!

at first I thought this might be temporary, but it last a week..and I tried very hard to understand why I'm feeling that way..

I'm sure that assignment, project and many other stuff link to my studies give an impact to me but then there are still few issues that bother me..I'm absolutely, 100% confident!!

and I miss to freely talk with my buddy, Asi Unnie, before I sleep bout random topics, gossips, issues..and miss to tease her before we go to bed..

since now, I'm sleeping alone in my room (I guess I've been sleeping alone since I'm in high school...hehehe) I'm surely miss to do this again..

OH!! Many was asking bout my Facebook status the other day, which it sounds like I nearly involved into accident. What was happened to me and plus, many was scolding me for being such a reckless..well, here's the true story..

I was driving home with my 3 other classmate one day after we bought our dinner at pasar malam in Kelebang. On the way back home, I was driving around 60 - 70km/h..and my distance between the car in front was quite far..when suddenly the car stop abruptly and I don't really saw his break light, I step on my brake pedal so hard but the force I pressed felt like didn't quite enough to stop my car up until I need to make a left turn to avoid crashing the car in front. I nearly hit it, miss by an inch...and I came to my nerve back..my heart pumping so fast like it can jump out of my heart...but the fear came bit late...than I was back in the lane when suddenly 3rd car in front of me make an emergency break just to give his way to the car at the opposite direction to make a turn...this time I manage to avoid it fast but I can't really control my anger that time and shouting like crazy inside the car..luckily they didn't here it..phewww~ that was what happened that day..

and if I'm not mistaken, I received a sad news on that day from my dear...he said that one of our friend just lost his boyfriend in an accident...I was quite shocked as we just met her few weeks back and she was totally happy and cheerful that time. I felt sorry for her lost and for those Muslims who read this let us recite Al - Fatihah for the late Wan Mohamad 'Izzat Azrai Wan Mud, Fathin Izzati's boyfriend. Hope that Arwah will be with those with Iman...Aaamin~

guess that's all for my post...I'll write back when I have time..^______^

Menggatal~

2010-07-13T12:01:00.003+08:00

Current Facebook Status:

"Menggatal adalah sejenis penyakit yang dihidapi oleh kebanyakan org yg b'mula dr L..Menggatal juga adalah nama tempat yang terdapat di Sabah..haish~ (^____*)V"

well, this might look a little weird..me, typing a status that contains a lot of meaning..hehehe...for those of you wandering what this "Menggatal" word means it basically means flirty and etc...*if I'm not mistaken..

hahahaha..and of course, it's happen to everyone including me! yup,admit it! but that doesn't means "Menggatal" in a way where I flirts with guys...it can also means I do some stupid thing and regret it later...hahaha!!

but the thing is it's always fair for guys to flirts with girls but not us, girls...so, what the choice have we had girls? we can't do it..I guess, cause it will look soo not proper..right? then why let guys have the advantage?

hurrrrmmmm, wondering...~

When A Guy Cut His Hair Because Of...

2010-07-03T00:48:00.000+08:00

To be honest, I'm not in a stable condition right now..

Flu and fever just struck me after I had a wonderful swimming this evening..

but this one thing happened to me today, I won't let it go just like that..

2 July 2010

Later this afternoon around 1322 pm, I received one mms from my dear..

well, I thought it was just normal ordinary mms I received from him like before and I just merely look at the picture and it was just another haircut he did and close it as I'm in rush and need to send my lil bro to school..

then...later, after I had barely breathe like a normal person back again..I realized and remembered something about the mms and I open it up, the picture he sends to me..

and

"WHHHOAAAAH!! it's TAEYANG haircut!! How...how could he do that??Why among many2 haircut in this whole wide world did he choose to cut his hair just like TAEYANG?!!?"

for you guys that does not really know about Taeyang, you might probably wonder..how is Taeyang haircut look like? is it nice? hahahaha...

well, here is Taeyang haircut looks like!

another...another...

cool eyh? a bit punk + cuteness + machoness + handsomeness..

ouh! how I like it very much..

back to the topic..

we were in Sunway Pyramid..and was waiting to get into the cinema and this conversation pop up..

He wanted to cut his hair + it's new semester...to avoid 'saman' from pakgad he asked me which style is good and suited him?

we were looking at a saloon mirror which framed a lot of new haircut and hairstyle..

many hairstyle he wanted to try out needed him to keep his current long hair..

and suddenly as I was browsing through pictures in my handphone, I came across Taeyang picture and show him..without saying anything..

and suddenly here comes mr. taeyang - haircut - look - a - like!!

I did ask him..why he did that?

and the answer is simple..

"what you told me, I will try to make it happen...as long as you happy, I'll be happy too! whether it nice or not it's a second thing.."

ouhhh...isn't that sweet enough? thank you for millionth times dear!!

you totally make my life...and seriously..I'm happy and enjoy being with you, dear..!!
this is what you feel..
When A Guy Cut His Hair Because Of You..!!

that's it guys! do comment ya!

anyway...this is what his hair is look like now..

My new Mr. Taeyang - Haircut - Look - A - Like!!

*hehehe...a lil bit Taeyang haircut I must say...not totally! hehehe~

Unexpected Birthday Present

2010-06-27T02:37:00.000+08:00

Well this post might sound a bit outdated as my birthday was in January and it's June going to July which means I'm already 6/7 month older than my birthday..

The reason I'm posting this is because, while I was browsing through my friends updates on Facebook, I came across this one profile that catch my attention as it pictures display a very colourful and cute looking CHOCOLATE!!!

I was and still mad about chocolate up till now and to make thing sounds very exciting the profile of that person lead me to the blogshop where I get my birthday present from my honey!!

~sayasukecoklat.blogspot.com~

Well, basically I got 2 present from my dear:

1st: My Lovely Teddy "Bobo"

2nd: A box of CHOCOLATE!!

this is what it's look like before it reach me:

[looks very delicious and tempting!!!]

and this, you might not want to see it, this is what it looks like when it reach me:

[ouh!! I hate pos laju treat my present this way!! T____T]

well guys, don't judge a book by it's cover...

and don't judge a chocolate by it's look!!

The taste never fails me..

It is very delicious with the filling inside..

even I got better after I ate this chocolate when I was having a high fever..

If you are wondering what kind of present you want to give your loved ones or you are wandering on what door gift would be best to give to your pal..

well, you should check up on the blog and you'll find something that best suits your occasion!!

and thanks to my honey for the present and his sweet thought of buying me a handmade chocolate!!

till next time, bye2 guys!!

p/s: do comment ya!! ^___^

Papa...My Greatest Hero!

2010-06-19T23:23:00.000+08:00

In my entire life there were two thing I treasured the most
1st: Papa and Mama
2nd: Along, Angah, Abang and Adik
They were like my heart, soul and air to me..every beat counts is priceless

Papa is not like any ordinary dad I might say..
He got his own method on handling us five..
never really show his true emotions and feelings..
and its hard to predict him except for mama, who knows him better..

I had recall few memories back then..
when we were young [along, angah and me]
well I would say we were pretty naughty doing this and that..
there was one time, we ought to go for shopping but the three of us were fighting at the backseat, whom gonna sit next to the window.
papa was soo mad that he canceled the shopping agenda and locked us all outside.
another method that he used when I was crying like mad were
locked me up in a bathroom until I stop crying..
but if there is no sign I will stop, he will took a pail full of water and "wash" me until I stop..
hahahahaha...~

Funny when I thought about it now..
how I adore him and look up to him soo much in my life..
papa never ever forget his responsibility in raising us five..
from our solat, agama, school, study, time management, food, where we go, with whom we go everything being monitored carefully by him..
he has become my idol and influence me in many ways of viewing this world..

how lucky mama to have papa..
a know-it-all person..
sometimes I felt that, when I grow up I want to have a man that resembles papa in his actions..
but it is not easy to find one..
thus I thought, rather than find someone who resembles him, why don't I be like him?
because I am his daughter and I knew him since I was small..

To papa and mama:
I have learn a lot about LOVE in this world.
It starts on 11 January 1990.
I found that, eventhough there were other people who loves me..still, your love were the greatest.
Having to stay this far from both of you, make me realize how important you were to me.
To realize something this big making me feel loved every second..
though I always hurt your feelings, deep down inside I want you to know how important both of you to me..
I'm still learning to live, scold me if that was the best way to teach me..
beat me if that was the best reminder for me..
I will take it if that makes me a better person in the future..
Thankful for your love
Thankful being born as one of the Roslan's and Norizan's..

Papa, you are my greatest HERO!!!
Happy Father Day!!

^_____________^

T.O.P [BIG BANG] - Turn It Up [MV Teaser]

2010-06-17T01:13:00.000+08:00

ATTENTION ALL BIG BANG's & T.O.P FANS!!!!

T.O.P new singles will be out on 21062010

let's have a look at the teaser~

The True Meaning of Happiness

2010-06-06T02:23:00.000+08:00

I was online and messaging with him one day...

suddenly it occurred to me to ask him, whether he is happy or not being with me?

the question sound strange enough when both of us doesn't have any major big problem yet so far. Its just suddenly came through my mind...and later he reply,

"Yep! Happy, I'm totally happy with you..."

Thats answer it all...

but feelings of dissatisfaction is always a part of human nature, and eagerness and curiousness always kills the cat.

Later, I found myself typing...

"...whats make you totally happy with me?"

and later he reply..

"Dunno really, I'm just happy being with you..."

Indescribable is always something that left others wandering even more.

and I stop for a moment.....thinking....thinking very deeply....

Another question pop-ups into my head.

"How can he be soo happy with me without even know why he becomes happy being with me?"

I know, it is very subjective to define happiness. People got their own perception on what is happiness and the true meaning of happiness.

and I learn a lot of meaning of happiness when I'm with him.

Happiness No. 1: Being apart from him and missing him is something that bring happiness to

Happiness No. 2: Knowing he is there thinking about you when he was busy with his work.

Happiness No. 3: Seeing his bright smile when we met.

Happiness No. 4: His childishness when he was at fault.

Happiness No. 5: When we were on the phone talking bout many stuff and giggling over

something.

Too much happiness if I want to list it all here..

He teach me a lot on how to appreciate and be thankful..

It's hard to imagine myself in his shoes..

But the most important lesson I learn from him is that...

"Be happy even you are sad, because there were many other people outside there are sadder than you...the world is not made for you to cry but it's made for you to laugh and enjoy the life...and love is the most precious thing to be cherished about...I'm not here to make you cry, I'm here to make you smile..."

~Thanks for the lesson and I will always continue learn to love~

Must Watch Movies 2010 [June]!!

2010-06-05T23:06:00.000+08:00

Alright peeps these are among the movies you must check out in cinema around you ya!

1. Killers

cast: Ashton Kutcher [Spencer]

Katherine Heigl [Jen]

on cinema: June 4, 2010

2. The Karate Kid

cast: Jaden Smith [Dre Parker]

Jackie Chan [Mr. Han]

on cinema: June 10/11, 2010

3. Knight and Day

cast: Tom Cruise [Miller]

Cameron Diaz [April Havens]

on cinema: June 25, 2010 (US preview)

THE MUST WATCH 2010 on PREMIERE DATE!!

The Twilight Saga: ECLIPSE

cast: Robert Pattinson [Edward Cullen]

Kristen Stewart [Bella Swan]

on cinema: June 30, 2010

So, make sure you all watch it yea!! It's great to have list of movie for us to go and watch!!

enjoy guys!!

^_____^

Shaun Evaristo and The Movement Lifestyle

2010-06-05T00:04:00.000+08:00

I'm pretty much sure some of you never come across this name I mention above. But for those who craze for slick hip hop choreography, this name was among the top choreographer people look up for. Yup! he is a dancer but I would say he is more a choreographer himself..

How did I discover him? hahaha..

well, since I'm a big fan of BB [Big Bang]..which I follow every currents updates about them especially Taeyang..I felt very curious on who actually choreo all the dance move especially when Taeyang Second Solo debut song was out not long ago.

Wedding Dress choreo and dance move was soo slick and sharp and the move is following every beats and bring the meaning of the song itself. I was soo impressed and later found myself checkin up on this guy who choreograph all the dance move.

Surprise,surprise!! Shaun has work with BB for many mv's and he was like a permanent choreographer for the YG Family. (*a bit left out here~)

What I like about him is that he actually utilize all the possible part of the body and make full use of every movement that our body can do..(*ahhh~ this part seems really complicated)

I like his move, his energy and his choreography that is always something you wouldn't expect a person can perform. As far as I'm concern, he's been dancing since his little age and grew up dancing in his garage. Look back at his past, he certainly have a very strong background in dancing as he has taken up tap, jazz and even lyrical classes when he was in high school. This strengthen the reason why he can actually mix match all the steps he choreograph.

Every successful story, there were always something that motivates them behind. As for Shaun, family and friends always become his great motivator. Wow, how I like it when someone as great as him still have a strong bonding with his family.

Currently Shaun and other choreographers are working hard to promote and bring their dance to a higher level. Movement Lifestyle sure to awe you by different moves and choreographers working under one roof. All the best for all of you and hope to see much2 more moves from all of you guys!

As for me, for some unknown reason, my love towards dancing life grew day by day. Thanks to all of them for showing moves and steps. and I plan to take a dance class alongside my hubby later when I get married. Wouldn't dance is all about enjoying and expressing love?? so, it's the best method to show and share love with the one you love!! hehehehe~

To roll up all, I would like to share some inspirational quotes from Shaun himself:

"It's been a journey of finding more of who I am, what I like creating and what I want to share with other people. As of now, I can only continue to do the same thing and appreciate what I have...I truly am blessed"

- Shaun Evaristo

For those who craze for more feel free to visit here:

- Shaun Evaristo Youtube

- Movement Lifestyle Youtube

-Shaun Evaristo tumblr

- Movement Lifestyle tumblr

credits goes to:

- Shaun Evaristo, Lyle Beniga + Aimee Lee Lucas: for awesome moves in wedding dress + where you at [Taeyang]

- YG Family: BB, 2NE1= you're just awesome!!

- My long 'lost' friend: thanks million much for introducing me "Namanbarabwa [Taeyang]" to me..it's where I generate this love. peace! <3

Malacca Photo Shooting!

2010-06-02T21:04:00.001+08:00

Okay guys..

I actually would like to keep this to myself..since I'm not yet editing the pictures..

all this pictures were taken when abg faiz [mr.minouri shirota] and his friend, Hafiz Cak came visiting me here at Malacca..

we have fun walking every part in bandar Malacca and photo shooting here and there..and to be honest that was the first time I'm climbing up A'Famosa..

having fun became your tourist guide bros!! hehehe~

thanks a lot guys for showing up and you guys were rawks and awesome!!

Here's some of the pickture we managed to click! click!

Big Bang - Tell Me Goodbye

2010-06-01T12:01:00.000+08:00

English Translation

Letting you go…(here’s somebody…)
Letting you go…(here’s somebody…)
Yo I got this, yeah
still thinking about this thing alot
you got me shaken up
(Please tell me there’s a way)
And it got my head just spinnin’ round round round round
(Please tell me there’s a way)
Don’t wanna take a fall
It’s best to break it up
It’s gonna be better for you, move on
(Please tell me there’s a way)
Uh huh we break it break it
Or thought we make it make it
And now we cover it up

Girl I swear I won’t even for a second
cause you any pain
in order to protect you
there’s already no other way

Baby our love itself brings us pain
And I got nothing, nothing to say

Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
those hands that embraced me
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
seem to be letting go
if forgetting me will give you freedom Baby
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye

Girl you know when you lose your smile
I will place the blame on myself
Those words, and even the light
I will lose sight of everything else

Baby the moment our lips part this time
I’ll never find better, better than you

Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
those hands that embraced me
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
seem to be letting go
merely being by my side is not kindness Baby
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye

Yo and it’s so, so
Sad it just ain’t happening
Wish it could be better
Sorry to scrapping
But I just can’t let ya
Shouldn’t be less than happy
I said look at me
I couldn’t live with myself seeing you lacking
The things you deserve
Baby you was a part?
Must believe that it hurts
that lead this world
I feel the aching through my body
it just takes a bigger part of me
to be let you go
I wish that one soul

your voice, pained and fading away, away…
erased completely by the wind, stay, stay…

all these things, I can’t take it, those tears, don’t cry for me
for your sake I’ll never look back again

Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
those hands that embraced me
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
seem to be letting go
merely being by my side is not kindness Baby
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Tell me goodbye

Romanized Lyric
Letting you go… (here’s somebody…)
Letting you go… (here’s somebody…)
Yo I got this, yeah
Still thinking about this thing alot
You got me shaken up
(Please tell me there’s a way)
And it got my head just spinnin’ round round round round
(Please tell me there’s a way)
Don’t wanna take a fall
It’s best to break it up
It’s gonna be better for you, move on
(Please tell me there’s a way)
Uh huh we break it break it
Or thought we make it make it
And now we cover it up
Girl I swear kimi no koto wo ichibyou demo
Kanashi masenai yakusoku
Mamoru tame ni wa mo obore shita
Erabu michi wa nai kara
Baby aishita bundake kizutsukete shimau
And I’ve got nothing, nothing to say
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Dakishimeta te wo
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Hanasou
Boku wo wasureru koto ni jiyuu ni naru nara Baby
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Girl you know kimi ga egao wo naku shitaku hodo
Boku wa jibun mo semeru yo
Nego sameru kotoba mo hikari sae mo
Nanimokamo miushinau
Baby kono kuchibiru ga hanareta shunkan ni
I’ll never find better, better than you
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Dakishimetate wo
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Hanasou
Soba ni iru koto dake ga yasashisa janai to Baby
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Yo and it’s so, so
Sad it just ain’t happening
Wish it could be better
Sorry to be scrapping
But I just can’t let ya
Shouldn’t be less than happy
I said look at me
I couldn’t live with myself seeing you lacking
The things you deserve
Baby you was a part ?
Must believe that it hurts
That lead this world
I feel the aching through my body
It just takes a bigger part of me
To be let you go
I wish that one soul
Kimi no koe setsunaku fade away… Away-ay-ay-ay
Kaze ni kakikesarete yuku stay… Stay-ay-ay-ay
Kore ijou wa I can’t take it, sono namida don’t cry for me
Kimi no tame never look back again
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Dakishimeta te wo
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Hanasou
Soba ni iru koto dake ga yasashisa janai to Baby
Tell me goodbye, tell me goodbye
Tell me goodbye

Intersesi + SUKMA = Melaka

2010-06-01T10:23:00.001+08:00

Almost 3 weeks now i've been here in Melaka doing my short course.

Today we've been given a day off as Mr. Koe got some meeting he needs to attend.

and I was waking up early in the morning to go to pasar and buy some barang basah or else later we will starve to death...

Doing intersession was not something I thought about until I reached Melaka...well, it's almost like a compulsory semester for every degree in marketing students here in order to finish our subject on time..of coz it feels bored as we only took 1 subject for this short course + people are lazyly enjoy their holiday at home..

but that doesn't matter much to me..apart of doing my intersession I'm actually waiting for the SUKMA to come...hihihiihih..

almost 2 month now I'm not seeing him...so, it's the time for me to meet him and support him!!

9 or 10 June the team will come here and I'm gladly welcome their arrivals..

hehehehehe...

so, as the citizen of Melaka..

I am welcoming every contingent of SUKMA from across the country to

Melaka Bandaraya Bersejarah

*promoting2~~

OPTIONS & DEISIONS

2010-04-23T16:16:00.000+08:00

Life is a maze, you have to choose the right path..

My life was and is pretty hectic this past few weeks. As for right now I'm in the midst of final exam where everything I've learnt for the whole semester will be poured out into that yellow booklet. Early this morning I've just finished the very first paper for my very first degree..hehehe~

I'm not really confident with what I've just wrote this morning..but tawakkal is all I can do..

fight for other subject after this!!

As I was typing this..there are few OPTIONS and DECISIONS I should make in the shortest time ever...it's mainly involve myself...of course or else I won't be making any decisions..

1st: House for next semester

ahahahah!! this I would consider as my stupidness also..

I hate doing last minute job but then I still doing it..we have less than a month from the day we'll be kicked out from Tun Mutahir "Home for the Newbie.." and later spread across this BIG city of Melaka...but yet we still dun have the house yet...me and my friend will review our last resort dis monday and hopefully it can be called home...~

2nd: SUKMA Negri9??!??

Whoooaaa!! this is big...when I was in Jengka last week...my archery coach en.mie offer me an offer that is hard for me to reject...it sounds like this..

"Awak nak main SUKMA tak?saye serious nie...awak beli bow, lepas final dtg training sini...main tuk negri 9..."

gileeerrr!! hahahaha...my mouth fell open with this offer...if possible nak je terima offer tue..but then, I have to BUY my bow first...and it's not that CHEAP!! and there, I have to let go the offer just like that...

3rd: 7 May

I've made my decision and the date is set...7 May will totally change me forever...

once I signed the paper last week, I am bound to oblige in all rules and regulations stated...the nervousness is still deep inside my heart and the fear of course keep coming to me...all I need is prayer from those who love me and knew me the way I am...to those who already know what's gonna happen in this very memorable day I won't forget...smile...as you are the chosen one among all

^_____^

wish me luck for my exam yea!!

KBM FAMILY~

2010-03-17T17:03:00.000+08:00

~Pictures of my new family in KBM~

~penerapan BBAM2B~

~John, Rir, me and Mun~

~Lovely Miss K~

~ ila and me...best buddy~

~ Mun, Cyn and John..2 Sabahans~

~ Alya and tina...Jengka mali..~

~Buddies from Jengka..amy, asi, alya and tina~

~Ila, kak Fay and me??~

~Heart, Soul and Rhythm to my melody..~

~ We're All in This Together!!~

DUA TERBARU...!!!

2010-03-17T15:55:00.000+08:00

~KBM~

~UiTM Kampus Bandaraya Melaka from Kolej Tun Mamat~

~KBM Entrance~

Huhuhuhu...tiba2 hari nie terajin sekejap nak update blog setelah hampir berbulan - bulan meninggalkan blog yang satu ini..

Actually bukan sengaja nak tinggal tapi lately life is soo hectic in my part..

and for certain of you yang still don't know my current situation, guess right now is the right time for you guys to know it..

FIRST

I am NO LONGER in UiTM JENGKA, PAHANG..NO LONGER ye..I've been transfered to UiTM KAMPUS BANDARAYA MELAKA and currently doing my degree in business administration major in marketing. I've been offered a place to continue in degree instead of finishing my diploma for another 3 semester. It's a new system offered by UiTM to those who qualified to further their study in degree. Well, actually ramai yg apply and dapat tawaran untuk buat penerapan, but because of we're the first batch, ramai yg tolak atas alasan tak yakin..

Basically it's just the same with diploma..nothing much different it's just that we don't really feel like living in a campus life (how i miss his...) coz building and class adelah building pejabat..so you'll feel more like going to work rather than going to class. At first feeling scared and rase macam nak balik jengka balik je...but after I experienced myself the style, life of a student in KBM..I felt much much more better now..and it's almost final examination..Alhamdulillah...so far everything seems well..and ouh! I'm currently in my 2nd semester here..

LAST

Since I'm now living in the heart of Melaka...makanye I'm no longer or I should say stop playing archery for a while. Kolej di kampus bandaraya tak sama seperti di kampus - kampus lain..jadi, there were no place for me to train and exercise like others in Jengka..orang cakap klau kita bersukan, lepas tu kita tak jage badan, makanye badan akan naik mendadak - dadak..and that's what happened to me..still I'm happy with this transformation..hahaha..coz it's hard to gain weight just like that..so,if you guys notice, I look a bit more healthier than before...hehehehehe!!!

I WANT MY PASSION!!

2010-03-12T13:42:00.000+08:00

It's been almost 3 months I stopped archery to continue my studies in Melaka and for almost 3 months now I didn't do much workout and exercise to keep fit..hahahaha!!

*if P.Mon found this out, she'll be totally angry...

and now, I'm totally missed the old days I shared with my Archers Family..and I'm thinking to continue my shooting as soon as possible or else I'll loose the feelings, adrenalin and passion when shooting..

Talking about passion, I have just browsed through several bow makers website and suddenly falling deeply in love with one of the Matthews compound bow called

*PASSION*

Gosh!!! It's soo beautiful and totally gorgeous..!!! It comes with my favorite color, pink!! and I totally want it like right now!!

Though I know the price might be a little too expensive but..I want nothing else than this..

Huhuhuhuhuu..papa, will you please buy me this bow... please~

I'm envy towards them..they can spent almost every evening shooting while I spent almost every evening lying on my bed or freezing in the class..huuuuu~

and I'm getting lazy and lazy and lazy to exercise everyday...!!

look for the detail here at Matthews

huuuuuu....I want my PASSION right now!!!

Archery, Old Time Stories and Present

2009-09-17T23:53:00.000+08:00

Since my last post, I have a lot of things I want to share actually..
it's all happened soo fast that I don't even get to register it yet to my head..
though right now and the day forward I won't be as normal as it I'm now,
so I guess this is the right time to share some of my great experience..

1st: ARCHERY

This by far was something that I wouldn't even dream about in my whole life..
involving myself in this sport has become one of the thing I currently enthusiast about after I finished my swimming lesson..
It's one of my aim and goal actually to try each of the sports suggested by our Prophet Muhammad:
-swimming
-archery
-horse riding
-sword fighting
and so far I have experience swimming and archery..
and I'm glad to announce some good news, that I am now officially joining UiTM Pahang Archery club and Insya Allah if I am progressing and training well, I'll be able to join tournament ahead..
that is what En.Mi promised me.
They all were really nice to me, though I'm among the 'short' ones in the team..
I am really grateful if I could received moral supports from everyone especially my loved ones, in my journey with this club..
I really really do need support from each of you guys..!!
and let us pray for my health and fitness throughout my involvements..!!
to those who would like to check up on our club blog..
here's the link:
UiTM Archer Blog

2nd: OLD TIME STORIES

I received an email in my myspace account one day..
to my surprise, someone from the 'past' has finally found me..
in his search of me for 6 years, he ended up find my friendster account and from there he tried to contact me through my myspace and the rest is history.
It's a bit funny and interesting at the same time to find there were someone looking for you when you don't even remember them at all.
Talking with him about the past made me realized how serious I am even in standard 6..
hahahahahahahahaha!!
he told me that I was such a fierce little girl that time and that makes him afraid to come near me..
hahahahahah..
well, I'm changing now..I guess..??
Everybody's changing right?
but then again..Thank you soo much for searching for me..
you add up another love in my life..!!

3rd: Present

While writing (guess it's typing) this, I'm having my short break after my final exam..
and will be back to Jengka on tuesday..
I have to go for archery training during this break..
a different way to spend my semester break this time and preparing for tournament..
glad to have something worth doing when I don't plan anything for this break..
I'll be here in Shah Alam for 5 days for Eid-Adha and a little later on December before the start of new semester..
might not post anything for a moment..
I'll try to whenever I have the time..

^________^

Stand By You...

2009-09-05T14:49:00.000+08:00

I Love this song...
Deep meaning..

First and Last post of August..

2009-08-31T01:40:00.000+08:00

This could be the first and the last post for this month..
as today is the last day of August..
Merdeka..Merdeka to everyone..
hahahaha...
I must have been really tired and exhausted for traveling back and forth for three weeks in a row...
something I never done in the past 2 semester..

as for next month..
I swear to write something more thoughtful, meaningful and educating...
well, there's a lot to say and a lot to write..
till next time..

A week full of boredness!!

2009-07-31T00:10:00.000+08:00

YES!!!!
sure enough this will happen..
having a month++ breaks and been given an extra break do make you hate holiday damn much!
prepared mentally and physically to start a new sem and suddenly had to face this is soo frustrating..!!!
this whole H1N1 thingy turn everything upside down..
all the quizzes, plans, agm..everything need to be postponed

It's soo not me to do something without planning ahead..
to make things look fun and enjoyable, I've been spending most of my time finishing my unfinished assignment, swimming, accompanied mama to KL, doing some research on my term paper, research again on my upcoming report, downloading videos, downloading new songs, watching korean dramas like a freak, texting with my hun, texting again with my buddies..

seems enjoying and fun..but nah..!!
thinking bout you'll be back this sunday at 1.30pm, alone..
with a luggage with the weight that is heavier than yours..
and thinking that you have to walk 2-3 kilometer just to get to your own room..
sooo NOT FUN AT ALL!!!!

YAAAAAAA...!!!!
T____________________T

still...

* UiTM Di Hatiku *

Sudden Mid-Sem Break

2009-07-27T01:00:00.000+08:00

As sudden as it sounds, I'm home after a week..
I wasn't even planning to come back home this weekend
when suddenly my level-mate said that we've just been given a week break..soo sudden!!
and as sudden as the news spread..
UiTM Jengka, Pahang suddenly became a very chaos and havoc campus..
it seems like there will be an earthquake..
everyone were soo hectic running here and there, packing, shouting..
seriously...
and me myself also was soo intense suddenly..
thank goodness Ain wasn't home yet..
she drove us safely and here I am..
in Shah Alam..

unplanned break..
I don't even know what was I suppose to do this whole week..
pile of assignment need to be done..but the lazy-ness is way too high when I'm home..
I really need to gather the strength back..
feels like I'm loosing my nerve every now and then..

I'll write back when I'm done planning..
Ja ne!!!

^__________________^

Goodbye My Lover

2009-06-18T16:41:00.000+08:00

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or
let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit -
it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

p/s: nice song from James Blunt

THE BIG LIFE OF A SMALL GIRL

2009-06-13T00:03:00.000+08:00

13 June 2009 - 00:09a.m

In front of my laptop, doing my stay up for almost every night...
accompanied by my playlist which only include Korean + Japan + Jay Chou song..
Just had a dinner with my family at Secret Recipe..celebrating mama's birthday which passed two months ago..

THE FINAL RESULT
is OUT...!!!
Alhamdulillah..!! something that can be proud about..
mama and papa was happy and pleased..
Alhamdulillah..syukran Ya ALLAH..!!

THE HOLIDAY
I'm quite proud of myself in the way of me spending and 'arranging' my life this break..
and I actually accomplish most of the thing I wanted to do..
some of it were:

- Enroll in swimming class
[this is BIG..never thought I actually did it]

- Spending once a week with...
[it's indescribable...I'm enjoying all the time we spent together...but guess it won't be the same after this right?]

- One day free lesson by pro-photographer
[thanks to Abg. Husni for teaching me about photography FOC..hehe!! ;p]

- Buddies Day Out + Sushi Mania
[oppa did a good job by dragging me around KL..let's have it one more with shafuku next time!]

- Irish Lamb Stew in Secret Recipe
[this one is quite weird..I had a very 'delicious' dreams ever since the night before CTU final paper..it's like a month past now..~]

- 1st & 2nd Photography Assignment
[never expect this..but thanks soo much to along for the opportunity..Love ya!!]

- Johor Gateaways
[spending 3 days and 2 night at different houses do give a whole new experience..]

- Internet-addict
[no need to decribe this!]

- Kdorama & Jdorama Freak
[no country could make such melancholy and 5star drama other than this 2..finished watching too many!]

THE HEART...*again n again?

hahahahaha...guess this is quite lame..
but what to do? its happen again..haissshhh~
mend..broken..mend..broken..mend..mend..broken..broken..broken..broken..
"nyawa" I'll keep that as your present for me..
what else I should do?
entahla..~
that's all I could say..
[asyik macam ni je kan?mst boring baca...]

~THE END~

It's a NEw Life...Fresh Start~

2009-06-10T14:50:00.000+08:00

Life is meaningless if you live alone..
But one thing people forgot was that they are not alone..
Family is the closest, friends are the nearest..
while Allah will always be by our side 24/7..
to lose something is to gain something..
regrets means you're not thankful for what He have for you..

~It's a new life indeed..
back to my original title..
no regrets, we have done the discussion and felt that this is the best for both of us..
nothing cause us to separate, its just that we like it this way..
we're gonna continue as a friend of course..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

[L.O.V.E]
it's a title, a vow, relation, trust, promises and honesty..
the number we hold is too small for us to take the responsibility of having commitment..
too sacred to be neglect..

guess I should concentrate on the thing I'm good at..
and I admit I'm not that good when it comes to love..
hahahahaha~
ask me no more...
I'm who I am now..~

It's You...

2009-05-18T01:47:00.000+08:00

Sharing something here..
enjoy! new single from Super Junior 3rd album
~It's You~

Dinner Treat..!!

2009-05-17T23:04:00.000+08:00

First and foremost I would like to apologise for not updating my blog for quite a long time.
Why?? because I'm dead busy studying for my final exam which just ended a week ago
and now I'm back again..at Shah Alam..

Last night, as promised Along took us to uptown Damansara for a dinner treat..
well, she just finished her studies and now working in CIMB
It's soo much fun when we get together..all 7 of us..
especially now, I'm the one who were always missing-in-action and with along tough work,
a moment like this should not be left out..
so, here are some pictures..credits to me and momo..
the photographers of the night..

[My one and only mummy and daddy]

[Angah and Along]

[adik with along]

[abang a.k.a momo...hehehe]

[and me...new looks!! ^__-]

[what actually we ate...yummy!]

[ The girl who were always serious when it comes to eat]

Actually there are a lot more pic, but takes time to upload all..
so, here are just some of them..
that's all for now!!

p/s: don't forget to leave your comment!!
would love to hear from you..

EKSPO SELANGKAH KE UITM 2009 [PAHANG]

2009-03-16T09:54:00.000+08:00

EKSPO SELANGKAH KE UITM 2009

Kampus Cawangan Uitm1, Bukit Sekilau, Kuantan
14-15 March 2009
8.30-5.30 petang...

well, this looks like a late promotion but just to share something for this past 2 days I've been working as the urusetia of expo UiTM untuk negeri Pahang.
the main objective of the expo is to give information and guide every spm-leavers to enter the university especially UiTM.
the expo being held throughout the country and the main expo was held at Stadium Malawati where UiTM Malaysia conducted it.
As for us in Pahang, the main campus Jengka had been asked to handle the expo in Kuantan.

3 days and 2 night we've been working to make sure the expo running smoothly.
Arrived at kampus Bukit Sekilau, Kuantan around 6 in the evening.
Unloading the brochure, pamphlate, bags and many more from the bus.
Later, En. Fuazi and his crew came dengan Pesona[betul ke eja nie??] and memerli kami yang datang lambat..
All of us wandered where we should stay for the next 2 days..
coz, kat sana yg kelihatan cuma bangunan2 tinggi yg nampak seperti kelas je..
then En. Fuazi handed us kunci ke rumah senario..

[Rumah Senario]
hahahahahahaha..the real name for that appartment was Rumah Tamu UiTM.
but then En.Lan yg tukar jadi rumah senario.
main reason sbb dari luar rumah tamu tu sebiji macam rumah flat/bilik untuk siswa/siswi tinggal..ktorg pun dgn malasnye naik ke tingkat 4 [nie semua keje en.fuazi yg nak ktorg duduk tingkat atas]
masuk2 je WAH!!!! totally unexpected! fully furnished apartment with television,fridge, complete kitchen, and every part of the apartment consits of an air-conditioner.
nothing can describe our satisfaction!!
then ktorg kene tukar rumah one flight ke bawah..
Alhamdulillah..

[DAY 1st - 14 MARCH 2009]
The expo started at 8.30 in the morning.
weather was great and brilliant that day, many SPM-leavers came on the first day
At first I'm incharged in handling the Faculty of Business Mangement with elin, but then En. Lan asked me to handle the UPU on-line regestration in the computer lab..
well, its fun!! coz computer and internet makes my life complete...
hehehehe...and the first day went smooththough many come on that day..
its real fun when you could help others and know their problems..
especially when you know there still outside there that didn't know and didn't exposed to internet as much as I did..
I should be grateful for this...and now, I know better about UiTM, the courses offered, how to check this and that, your other options and many more!!

[DAY 2nd - 15 MARCH 2009]
Today I woke up a little bit late coz last nite we 're-constructed' the booth again..
well, experience on the 1st day do taught us how to be more systematic this time.
but weather was not good this time..
it's rainy in the morning...still rain in the afternoon...raining heavily in the evening...and keep raining when we headed back to Jengka..
not many were there this time..coz its rain..
still the eager one came to fulfill their dream..
working in a cillax way..and everything went smooth though the rain cut down the number in not more than 100 that day..
and we reach almost 300 people visiting our expo for 2 days..

and as for those who read my blog, I would love to share a few links you can visit to know more about what course you are qualified for and UiTM info..

[LINKS]

To check course that suits your result in UITM

To know more about UITM

To register Pre-Diploma/Proffesional Cert. in UITM

To register/update regestration for UPU

To know more about UITM Pahang

My First DSLR Camera [SIMBA]

2009-03-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

Hehehehehehehe...
terang lagi bersuluh ape yg tercatat dkt title di atas..
yes!!!
I've just got myself my very own DSLR camera this evening..
heee..sangat gumbira..
It's all happened soo fast..
papa actually had to keep his promise to buy me the DSLR camera if I got DEAN's LIST in my 1st semester..n now he has to fullfil it..yeay!!
tengah hari tadi, bersantai dgn family sambil tgk hindustan yg sangat tak best..
then dunno why, tibe2 rase sangat boring n ajak my luvely daddy bwk jalan2..
coz, bkn slalu balik shah alam..alang2 balik mesti nak enjoy jap.
then, mama suggest pergi ikea..kebetulan nak cari something kat sane..
so, semua bersiap-siap..
tak lame 2 semua dah dlm kereta..
then, papa tanye..
"Kite nak pergi mane ni? Tak nak pergi ikea la..tgh hari susah nak cari parking"
semua diam..takde idea nak ke mana..
pastu along suggest pergi cari my camera..
and later papa pun drive sampai ke PJ
papa took us to digital mall n I was like...
"Ooooooh...heaven!!!"
0___o
my head was suddenly full with everykind of gadgets...
uuuuuuuhhhhh~ sunggoh best!!
I even found the latest music player that I want from philips which have build-in wifi!!
n now I can shout out loud..!!
LIFE IS FULL OF FUN WHEN U HAVE GADGETS WITH WIFI IN JENGKA..!!!
poor me..I'm still aiming for that later on..
back with camera..
pusing punya pusing..usha punya usha..naik turun digital mall..
at last jumpe la dis one booth yg jual mcm2 jenis DSLR cam..
n boraklah ngan uncle 2..
n there it was...my lurvely Nikon D60...
I name it as [SIMBA] coz it suits well..
cute as me..ahahah!! [perasan jap]
awesome!!!
great..well, let's wait for my artwork..
now, I have to focus on my studies..final is just aroud d'corner!!
let's have a sneak peak on my new 'baby bushuk'!!

in LOVE or NOT??

2009-02-14T22:01:00.000+08:00

21 February 2009:

Today, I had to wake up early..not that EARLY but still, it's early..

we had a MARKETING TEST this morning..

and well, its quite easy memandangkan semalam struggle habis bace notes sampai saket kepale...

last night, I had spent a good amount of quality time with my course partner or would rather call her as my TWINS as I was the one who is nearly-soo-identical to her..

we had a discussion on marketing and as usual it will always turn into a gossip, secrets revealed and many other stories that have nothing to do with marketing..

zuryn a.k.a nuna was and still become a good friend of mine when it comes to study..

including ajushhi a.k.a wan a.k.a bf nuna..

I love how their relationship turns from a friend to a good friend and now a happy couple..

sometimes rase bler tgh wat group discussion, trase mcm menyibuk je..

but then they were both soo nice to me, they never left me out in anything that they do..

kalau boleh nak heret sekali bler dorg pergi date..

haish!

I'm happy to see them happy!!

As for me, I'm still with the title :

single unmarried lady with a very definite plan about her future which she herself can't predict

[yes, what a long title I had...]

currently having a good free relationship with someone who she feels comfortable enough to let her tears, laughter, babble, plan, and her sarcarstic joke to...

met him when we were both in the same driving school..

funny how I first thought who he was...

and funny how I hate the way he approach me as a friend...

*I'm not used to a person came up to me and say "Hi!"

and we were both apart for several month after a few harsh argument...

then one day he was the one who contact me back

and from there we became a very very good friends..

hurmmmm...

crush? a lil'...but not much...

he had the same too..till now..

but I was afraid to say anything..

well, past experience do teach me not to involve in some trouble anymore..

still being haunted with past bitter experience which affect me till now..

but good thing is, he always do understand me the way who I am..

well, sometimes he could be someone that annoyed me too much and sometimes he become a shoulder to cry on..

now, he's learning to understand me better..

and learn to be better..

his efforts sometimes do touch me..

his greatest effort soo far was the one that happened nearly a year now and he still continuing it..

a great man who know what he wants and clearly understands what will happen in the future.

Breathless..countless...~

2009-02-07T21:18:00.000+08:00

I'm in...!!!!
well2...dis past few weeks/month was totally a hectic weeks/month ever in my life
dat is why the gap between my last post and dis is about one month apart..

1st thing first..
I'm just start out my new semester here at Jengka again on the last week of december..
the only place where I could find the meaning of total serenity, peace, calm in the life of mine..
place where I could express my true feeling..
where I could easily feel the presence of those who truly love me for who I am..
place for me to miss those precious moment that can't be count even with a million ringgit..
I was glad to be back here again and at the same time I felt a bit hahahahaha[boring]..
well, maybe for the fact that I was spending way tooooo much time at home for last sem break, now I'm missing them too much now!!
and I've just set my foot here again after the mid sem break last 2 week..

Tomorrow (8 February 2009), I'll be spending the whole morning listen to the talk from someone I don't really remember to know them anyway..
(doesn't matter anyway...I might dozz off at the very beginning though.. ;p)
Today was fun in every aspect...
we had dis some kind of a "reunion" for the July intake 2008 student..
not really a reunion, its just some program dat we're forced to come to..
or else we'll be "sue" and bla bla bla...
at 1st I thought it must be boring..
and did not expect it will turn out dat great, until I found myself laughing my heart out and enjoying myself throughout the modul..
It's fun to get to know most of them..they're just fun to be friend with..
nothing more would I expect..

I think its enough with soo cheerful life of mine..
this is why I love Jengka soo much..
it can distract me from the many problem I'm in now..

1st: I was soo positive that both of my 'heart' and 'soul' have some kind of unsolved argument which I think I'm the one who need to solve it with them..I was too lonely now to be left alone without both of them..
can't they consider this for me?for the sake of our true friendship?just for once?
it's hard to keep staring at the ring everytime and keep blaming myself for not look out for both of you..
he felt betrayed..
she felt guilty..
~'afh'~
would it come back to normal again?
can we hanging out together again like we used to before?
I was hoping for it...
no! I'm looking forward to...!!
to have my 'heart' and my 'soul' back together...

2nd: I'm having some kind of dream...more of a nightmare I think...it keeps coming every night and I was having a sleepless night for 3days now..
waking up 4 in the morning, to find my roommates were sleeping..
this same face's of someone I recognized every now and then..
I don't really know what was HE doing in my 'dream'..
surely I'm not dreaming or wanting to dream about HIM now..
not after the incident..
talk dis over to my mom..
surely mama knows better..she just know how to soothe me..
I just can't imagine life without her..
whatever it is, whatever thing that HE did in my dream was not something I should worry much..maybe I was entering the very crucial phase of erasing HIM..
or maybe...better not say it...

3rd: The unrelevent problems of mine...having a hard time to control myself towards my new obsession..hahahaha!!
Twilight sure give me a new lights in my life...
I was and still obssesed with this breathtaking vampire,
Edward Cullen and also The Cullens..
sure none of this is making any sense..
it's a fantasy, not a reality..
and I found myself more comfortable living in this fantasy life I've created myself..
rather than facing the rough reality outside...
but seriously...its bothering for me to not knowing about what happen in the 3rd book of the Twilight Saga or the 4th..and I'm planning a weekends off to the bookstore to spend an amount just to buy the 'not-soo-new' series of the book..
and spend like 2/3 days just to finish it..
another way of distracting myself from the problems..

It's fun to know that I was getting better and better in this distract-ur mind-program..
don't know where it will lead me to..
sure it will lead me to something good..hope soo..
guess dats all for now..

wow!!quite impressive on how much I could write today..
sure I have stored enough story to pour half of them out...
but not all..
save the best for last..
hahahahahaha~

and, special thanks for those who read my blog every now and then..
keep reading and supporting..
thanks from the very bottom of my heart..
look forward to my new post soon..
I'll be excited enough to know there is someone out there reading for my new update..
Thanks, Terima Kasih, Xie Xie, Kahamsamnida, Arigato gozaimasu!!

and not to forget to those who criticise me...
thank you soo much..
guess dis is my blog and I would just write what I loved too..
none of ur business if it's a crap or what..
like it = read it
hate it = ignore it

till next time..!!
^______^

p/s: this blog supposed being published on 7th February 2009...bcoz of a technical problems I
had, I have to repost it back...Thank you!~

~My Wish List for This Special January~ [someone please fullfil one of it..]

2009-01-03T22:06:00.000+08:00

Month dat I've been waiting for..!!!
yeah, here it comes again..the month of...

JANUARY

hahahahahahahahahahaha...
the month that will always be a memorable one...
I completely understand dat dis is just like publicise your own birthday, so dat someone could do something for you...ahahahahaha!!
so, what??
it's not like someone turn 19 everyday right??
and as for dis special month..
I just love 2 list few [yes, few...very few, I promise] few of my wish list for dis coming sunday..
hihihiihiihihhihhii~

~My Wish List for 20090111~

+Twilight/New Moon/Eclipse novel+
+an Ipod+
+complete set of HP book+
+a hug from my mama, papa n siblings on dat day+
+wishes from my dear friends and everyone+

what else eyh...?? Its always happen like dis, I've planned to have dis and dat..and when someone suddenly ask me what I want...the 1001 list just dissapear...
hehehehehehe~

so, now lets hoping for someone who will willingly grant my wish/es..

[hoping !!!!] ngehehehehe~

End of 2008, Starts of 2009

2009-01-02T16:29:00.000+08:00

Today is the 3rd day in the month of January and 3rd day in the year of 2009...
cepat rsenye mase berlalu and byk yg dah berlaku dan berubah dlm hidup ni sekelip mate je...
sedar atau tak penglaman n pengajaran ni m'matangkan diri yg satu nie..
let's recap 2008 memories and history~

sweet as honey:
~ got my car licence...at last I can drive myself..*heaven!!
~spm result out..far from what expected...but still thankful
~entering new life : I'm a university student!!! [UiTM pahang]
~bergumbira di Temerloh ngn classmate
~owh!! my 1st sem gpa was BRILLIANT...!! T_____T
~wut else??oohhh..lot more lah xt'tulis...

bitter for the better:
~hurmmm...aiman [shbat baek] accident wk2 kat penang..Alhamdulillah, t'selamat..
~then, pjol plk accident 30dec [if not mistaken]..parents n abg din meninggal..takziah [T____T]
~hurmmm...xde ape sgt kot..

well, yg penting semua 2 mrupekn pengalaman dan pengajaran yg terbaek bg diri ni..
bak kate org...
"pengalaman adalah guru terbaik buat semua org.."
ade hikmah d'sebalik semua yg berlaku..mungkin kite xnampak lg ape hikmahnye skrg..tp sape tau, mungkin Allah ade perancangan yg lebih baek untuk kite dlm tahun 2009 nie kan??
yooooooissssssh!!! gambarimasu...!!!
lupekan perkare sdeyh..yg dah berlalu biarkan berlalu..

kepada yg berkaitan..
saye dah memaafkan kesilapan anda walaupn xpnah anda terase bersalah trhdp ape yg terjadi..
diri ni hanye manusia biase, dan tak pernah sempurna..
tapi yg pasti diri ni adelah yg terbaik utk diri ini dan mereka yg tahu erti menghargai..
terime kaseh atas kenangan dn pengalaman yg pernah dikongsi akn m'jd satu panduan yg berharge..
tak pernah menyesal mengenali, tapi tak mungkin akan kembali..
"at-toyyibat littoyibin..." (an-nur;26)

kepada sahabat seperjuangan...
tak kiralah dari sek rendah, menengah, mahupun d'mane saje kite berkenalan..
terime kaseh atas nasihat, teguran, tunjuk ajar, kenyataan dan segala mcm lg yg amat berguna pd diri ini sepanjang 2008 yg lalu...
tiade lg yg lebih berharge mlainkan anda2 skalian yg sudi membuat diri ini menjadi lebih baik dr semalam...
maaf sekiranye pernah terguris hati atau ape saje...
sye bknlah manusia yg sempurne, namun jika mane2 kesilapan dpt ditebus sudilah kirenye memaafkan diri yg kecil ini...

~Goodbye 2008, Welcome 2009~

what's up korean I..!!

2008-12-23T23:33:00.000+08:00

what's up korean!!!

ahahahahhaha....well, I'm posting dis becoz I'm totally a...

[freak][addictive]obssessive][crazee][luuuuurveeee] etc...

about dis whole korean thingy~

especially about their korean music scene...

well, thanks to my deary atin..

yg sgt b'tggjwb dlm mempengaruhi minda bwh sedar diri ini..tutur ktenye mmg ade niat 'jahat' d'sebaliknye...heheheheh~

but, oh well..siape kesah..coz semue yg di recommend mmg sgt besh..!! thanks to her..

klau x dah jd mcm katak dlm gelas...

ahahaha, back to the main topic blk..korean music scene nie as I said, mmg sgt addictive....

what makes dorg nye music scene b'jaye gler smpi terkenal kat US n ngare barat yg lain??

as wut our mantan PM said....

"kite harus mengamalkan dasar pndng ke timur..!!"

*I'm looking at zee east ryte now!!!!!!!

sbnrnye..dorg + ktorg, bkn nye phm sgt pun lyrics2 die nie...

[xcept 4 me yg sggp crk dienye lyrics translation...]

tp dorg still blh pergi worldwide...

I do love Malaysia music scene though, lately nie byk yg dh b'kembang..gud2 keep it up..

n so, as I said b4...byk band, group, solo, duet dr korea nie yg besh2..

mostly succeess based on 3 or 5 years training b4 debut [mmg sgt lame...]

some wrote song themselves, choreograph their own dance move, n perfecting their talent n skill....huuuu~

when we talk about korean, 1 lg yg xblh terlepas is their [powerful][energetic][charismatic][superb] dance move...

org ckp, klau nk terer mnari...this is d'country u should spend ur life too..

ahahahhaha...n there it goes~ so, to complete dis whole opinion of mine

dis are some of my fav soo far...

[Super Junior ~ can u imagine 13 hot guys perform only for u??]

[Dbsk ~ five hottie on sale xcept for dis 1 on d'right..NOT AVAILABLE]

[Big Bang ~ powerful voice n oh! soo coool...^___^]

[SHinee ~ most of them are around my age...*can I have 1??]

[Epik High ~ they sang a beau-t-fool song n heart-warming melody]

n others..well, I'm flexible listener..if its nice to me then its nice!!

mayb n hopefully someday m'sia music scene blh jd mcm nie...

well, we have several on list skrg...

ex:

pop shuvit

estranged

faizal tahir??

hujan??

meet uncle hussein

mocha [btul ke ejaan nie]

n blah blah blah...

hmmm, impossible is nothing [owh! curik tagline adidas plk]...

sape tau kan??hmmm, okeylah..smpi cnie je dlu nk tdola..ngantok gler!!

*huuuuaaarrggghhhh...!!

bak kate mun my old friend;

mun: ya, umrie...dah2 la 2 on9...kang jd mate panda kang dok tenung pc 2 lame2...

huhuhuhu~

sok nk g shopping skit..hehehe..

k, till meet again..!

ja~ oyasuminasai...

^____^

start of something new...!!

2008-12-22T21:28:00.000+08:00

hye~

well, honestly...dis is my second blog I have soo far...
[well, since yg 1st tak berape nk menjadi coz kemalasan dah sampai tahap ke7]
so, now...
WELCOME TO MY NEW BLOG...

huhuhuhuuh~ so, as for zee introduction let's get to know me a bit...

name: [huda][cingkui][kechik2][simba][kechik][kakakadik][lana] dsbg..
slalu org2 laen panggil huda...je...yg suke bg gelaran ni mreke2 yg sgt lah rapat sehingge xdpt d'pisahkan lagi... jadi tercetusla name yg pelbagai bunyi nie..kdg2 2 pn pelik jgk..tp nk wat camne terime jelah...huhuhu~

yg beshnye dlm hidop nie, ade certain people yg menyayangi diri ini seadenye tnp byk soal...mereke2 nie la yg slalu ade waktu ssh dan senang...
antaranye:

[my luvely family~mmg xbnyk soal tp slalu kene soal dgn mreke]

[my besto frenzo; oppa n kim~xbyk soal jgk tp slalu kene mrh sbb lame xcontact]

[adeqku terchenta; mira~ sgt degil, bru pas majok...adek manjeku katenye]

[teman tdoku; unnie ~ our bedtime story is always about luv <3]

[adib; casper ~ mssgnye yg sgt inspire, xsah sehari tnp mssg drnye]

[syera~ menanges bersame adelah keje kami wk2 dulu2]

n so others....ramai lg yg means a lot to me...walaupun xdpt nk ltk semuenye, tp they know they have their own special place in my heart <3>

*temenung kejap...~

owh! okeyla...smpi cnie je dlu...tbe2 baru t'ingat kene sidai baju...haish~

tapi sidai baju mlm2 besh...coz xde orang2 lalu lalang tgk anak dara orang...n muke pun xlah terbakar mcm arang...huhuhu~
[ayat nie cambes plk...]

well, dats all for dis post...lau nk kenal lg diri yg xsbrape nie..
rajin2 la singgah ye!!
matane....~